It takes constant reminding myself to keep my heart open to all of life, that I call good and that I call bad. It would be nice if we did not have to hurt in life. I think most of us avoid it at all cost, however we grow the most during times of great joy and great suffering. So how can we stop avoiding suffering and pain. How can we wade right into life and embrace it with all its messiness? So how can we do this open our hearts to everything? We have to stop judging. Judging is a thing of the mind putting things into categories of good and bad. Life just is it isn't always fair but it is the way it is. If we can just see that living is for all of it not part of it. Breath deep and get in there and live.
One of the most important things I have found that in order to grow many times we must let go of things that once served us well. They don't work anymore at certain junctions of our life so we must let them go whether they be a job, a person, or even spiritual beliefs that limit us. We must at all cost grow that is what we are here to do. So if something is no longer serving us we must let it go.
I write daily and I never know what topic I am going to explore. I know that it is kind of a relationship with God, a conversation you might say and some days I say thing elegantly and others I am rather awkward. But the thing is I must have these conversations with God to know him and include him in the smallest decisions. I must explore the Higher self to know who I am We are all like the butterfly we emerge at each growth junction, leaving the cocoon. We are vulnerable at first and we question the cocoon but the cocoon experience was just right in the past it just does not fit us now. So we leave looking forward in excitement to the new experiences and feeling scared and vulnerable not knowing what is to come. Each job, person, suffering all form a cocoon around us until we come to that next growth point where we are technically reborn again. Then we have to let go of that experience and go forth excited and scared all over again.
We can't trust our minds necessarily to guide us but we can trust our hearts and intuition. For me my writing has always been me talking to God or a kind of prayer and intuition has always been God answering. We all move in and out of being fully alive. When we can't handle it we withdraw. Then we come back again to open our hearts to being fully alive feeling all there is to feel, the pain, the joy. It all sculpts us into the person we never dreamed until it happened we could be.
We all have a special gift. We sometimes do not know what it is. It does not matter what it is or if we do it well or not. We just need to keep looking into our hearts and finding that gift and sharing it.
Four years ago I had heart failure and my whole system shut down. I was on dialysis and the doctors said I would be for the rest of my life. I said, "I don't believe you." That did not make them too happy but anyway. My body healed that in in itself is a miracle. I should not by all odds be here. But I am and as long as I am I will keep trying to find my gifts and share them.
I am 76 years old and I feel like my best work is still to come. Everything up until now has been practice. I don't know what my best work is going to be I just have to keep on, keeping on as they say and I will find out.
To be that self which one truly is may sound so simple as to be absurd. To be what one is seems like a statement of obvious fact rather than a goal. But thinking about it on a much deeper level, it may not be as simple as it sounds.
I have come to a place in my life that I can truly say that I can separate myself from who society, my children, my family want me to be and can be for this time anyway who I want to be. In simple language, trying to be autonomous is a goal worth striving for. To achieve this goal or as much as I know about achieving this goal. I had to let go as I wrote above of a lot of chains that I had allowed to bind me over the years.
To become oneself one has to decide what activities have meaning in their life and which do not. We only have so much time to spend, at least this time around, and I for one want to spend it meaningfully. Freedom to be oneself is a huge responsibility and freedom in the true sense is something we should move towards with respect. To be responsibly self-directive means that one chooses, and then learns from the consequences. It is a significant but exciting experience, one that offers tremendous growth to one as an individual.
As human beings we are complex. We embody the richness and complexities of all the experiences of our life. We are now who we are because of these experiences. It is our responsibility to ourselves to get to know ourselves as well as we can so that we can change and grow. Then we can live a life that is truly ours. But this comes with a price of having to embrace the pain and the joy to full live like there is no tomorrow. The song dance like nobody watching tells that story of living like there was no tomorrow.
What truths are you willing to look at in yourself and accept? Are you willing to embrace and love you just as you are with no judgment. You are who you are today but tomorrow you can and might change. You can change anything you do not feel comfortable with at any time. It is a lot of hard work sometimes but it can change. At one time in my life I was a miserable human being, who disrespected myself in so many ways. I changed that person with the help of God and when I look back at that poor miserable woman I don't even recognize her as myself. But I was that woman and I am the woman I am today because I was her first. When I look back and see that woman I feel compassion for her because I know she was doing the best she could with what she had to work with. She also gives me hope that I changed her life and I can change my life today. What I did way back then over 20 years ago, was as hard as it ever can get I believe, so if I changed that I can change anything else that comes my way.
Today I see that I am way to quick to judge and I am unforgiving. I don't like those qualities but I can change them if I am motivated to do so. The motivation has to be that I want to be a better self. I can make a choice either way I have to live with the consequences. I have shut down a lot and do not fully feel. But there is a price for that shut down you cannot feel the joy when you shut down the pain.
Try some simple things to get that feeling going again. Spend time with those you love friends and family. Hug them and tell them how you care about them. It will melt that ice burg you have turned your heart into and don't forget to forgive yourself as well. Tell you that you love you too. I had not seen my grandson in some time. He came to help me when I was sick. He brought his daughter. My great granddaughter. She is three and so busy. I fell in love all over again with this little blond bundle of energy. It opened my heart to great joy.
Spend time with those who are worse off then yourself. It sets things in perspective. You can really then ask yourself how important is all this that you have been wallowing in self pity about.
Get quiet listen to yourself. When was the last time you just spent time with you? Listen to what you have been trying to tell yourself for a long time. Write in a journal or just write a conversation between you and God. I feel all of my writing is a conversation between me and God. As I explore how I feel about different subjects on paper, I get to know myself as whole lot better. I intuitively know what I need. God is talking to me when I intuitively know what I need to do or say.
As we get to know ourselves a whole lot better we no longer have to feel the shame that we are not more or pretend to be more than we are. We also do not have to be less than what we are. We simply can be what freedom there is in that.
You are an original and wonderous expression of God. You are one of a kind like a snowflake you are unique. You are you and not one other in the world is like you.
You do not look like anyone else not even your parents or your children. You do not live like anyone else and you do not have to live like anyone else. There are lots of things you do better than anyone else and lots of things you do not do as well and that is fine. You have gifts, talents and abilities that only you can express. You have thoughts that no one else has. All these things are what make you who you are and what you will become. When we think about being successful it is just doing what comes naturalily to oneself. What we are. Using all those talents, gifts and abilities that only I have as a unique individual and using it to its full extent. When we are comfortable in our own skin we live well because we are true to ourselves. Only those of us who have bothered to get to ourselves can really express ourselves as being ourselves. That is what makes us interesting. To be happy one has to use all those God given talents and abilities and just make them your own.
Your inner world will grow as you believe in it. It is not through a journey or searching that we find it is through believing. It is over the bridge of wanting it to be so and it is so. You want to believe because you want your life to have purpose, meaning and direction. You want to be that individual expression of God. You want to believe you have all the talents, gifts and abilities to use what God had given you to express your unique self.
There is with each of us a vastness of understanding and awareness that will make us achievers. Not in the worldly sense but in the sense of coming to terms of knowing yourself and being comfortable with that self in the eyes of God.
In your world within you are the central figure. You are the star. You and only you can fulfill the roles that you play within. This is the place where you try on other selves and see how they fit. This is the place where you and only you can go. What you will do with this inner life is the largest challenge that will ever come to you.
Judi Owns and Operates Be Jewel U where you can dress the whole family for less. Come Buy
Monday, February 16, 2015
Live Until It Hurts Then Live Some More.
It takes constant reminding myself to keep my heart open to all of life, that I call good and that I call bad. It would be nice if we did not have to hurt in life. I think most of us avoid it at all cost, however we grow the most during times of great joy and great suffering. So how can we stop avoiding suffering and pain. How can we wade right into life and embrace it with all its messiness? So how can we do this open our hearts to everything? We have to stop judging. Judging is a thing of the mind putting things into categories of good and bad. Life just is it isn't always fair but it is the way it is. If we can just see that living is for all of it not part of it. Breath deep and get in there and live.
One of the most important things I have found that in order to grow many times we must let go of things that once served us well. They don't work anymore at certain junctions of our life so we must let them go whether they be a job, a person, or even spiritual beliefs that limit us. We must at all cost grow that is what we are here to do. So if something is no longer serving us we must let it go.
I write daily and I never know what topic I am going to explore. I know that it is kind of a relationship with God, a conversation you might say and some days I say thing elegantly and others I am rather awkward. But the thing is I must have these conversations with God to know him and include him in the smallest decisions. I must explore the Higher self to know who I am We are all like the butterfly we emerge at each growth junction, leaving the cocoon. We are vulnerable at first and we question the cocoon but the cocoon experience was just right in the past it just does not fit us now. So we leave looking forward in excitement to the new experiences and feeling scared and vulnerable not knowing what is to come. Each job, person, suffering all form a cocoon around us until we come to that next growth point where we are technically reborn again. Then we have to let go of that experience and go forth excited and scared all over again.
We can't trust our minds necessarily to guide us but we can trust our hearts and intuition. For me my writing has always been me talking to God or a kind of prayer and intuition has always been God answering. We all move in and out of being fully alive. When we can't handle it we withdraw. Then we come back again to open our hearts to being fully alive feeling all there is to feel, the pain, the joy. It all sculpts us into the person we never dreamed until it happened we could be.
We all have a special gift. We sometimes do not know what it is. It does not matter what it is or if we do it well or not. We just need to keep looking into our hearts and finding that gift and sharing it.
Four years ago I had heart failure and my whole system shut down. I was on dialysis and the doctors said I would be for the rest of my life. I said, "I don't believe you." That did not make them too happy but anyway. My body healed that in in itself is a miracle. I should not by all odds be here. But I am and as long as I am I will keep trying to find my gifts and share them.
I am 76 years old and I feel like my best work is still to come. Everything up until now has been practice. I don't know what my best work is going to be I just have to keep on, keeping on as they say and I will find out.
To be that self which one truly is may sound so simple as to be absurd. To be what one is seems like a statement of obvious fact rather than a goal. But thinking about it on a much deeper level, it may not be as simple as it sounds.
I have come to a place in my life that I can truly say that I can separate myself from who society, my children, my family want me to be and can be for this time anyway who I want to be. In simple language, trying to be autonomous is a goal worth striving for. To achieve this goal or as much as I know about achieving this goal. I had to let go as I wrote above of a lot of chains that I had allowed to bind me over the years.
To become oneself one has to decide what activities have meaning in their life and which do not. We only have so much time to spend, at least this time around, and I for one want to spend it meaningfully. Freedom to be oneself is a huge responsibility and freedom in the true sense is something we should move towards with respect. To be responsibly self-directive means that one chooses, and then learns from the consequences. It is a significant but exciting experience, one that offers tremendous growth to one as an individual.
As human beings we are complex. We embody the richness and complexities of all the experiences of our life. We are now who we are because of these experiences. It is our responsibility to ourselves to get to know ourselves as well as we can so that we can change and grow. Then we can live a life that is truly ours. But this comes with a price of having to embrace the pain and the joy to full live like there is no tomorrow. The song dance like nobody watching tells that story of living like there was no tomorrow.
What truths are you willing to look at in yourself and accept? Are you willing to embrace and love you just as you are with no judgment. You are who you are today but tomorrow you can and might change. You can change anything you do not feel comfortable with at any time. It is a lot of hard work sometimes but it can change. At one time in my life I was a miserable human being, who disrespected myself in so many ways. I changed that person with the help of God and when I look back at that poor miserable woman I don't even recognize her as myself. But I was that woman and I am the woman I am today because I was her first. When I look back and see that woman I feel compassion for her because I know she was doing the best she could with what she had to work with. She also gives me hope that I changed her life and I can change my life today. What I did way back then over 20 years ago, was as hard as it ever can get I believe, so if I changed that I can change anything else that comes my way.
Today I see that I am way to quick to judge and I am unforgiving. I don't like those qualities but I can change them if I am motivated to do so. The motivation has to be that I want to be a better self. I can make a choice either way I have to live with the consequences. I have shut down a lot and do not fully feel. But there is a price for that shut down you cannot feel the joy when you shut down the pain.
Try some simple things to get that feeling going again. Spend time with those you love friends and family. Hug them and tell them how you care about them. It will melt that ice burg you have turned your heart into and don't forget to forgive yourself as well. Tell you that you love you too. I had not seen my grandson in some time. He came to help me when I was sick. He brought his daughter. My great granddaughter. She is three and so busy. I fell in love all over again with this little blond bundle of energy. It opened my heart to great joy.
Spend time with those who are worse off then yourself. It sets things in perspective. You can really then ask yourself how important is all this that you have been wallowing in self pity about.
Get quiet listen to yourself. When was the last time you just spent time with you? Listen to what you have been trying to tell yourself for a long time. Write in a journal or just write a conversation between you and God. I feel all of my writing is a conversation between me and God. As I explore how I feel about different subjects on paper, I get to know myself as whole lot better. I intuitively know what I need. God is talking to me when I intuitively know what I need to do or say.
As we get to know ourselves a whole lot better we no longer have to feel the shame that we are not more or pretend to be more than we are. We also do not have to be less than what we are. We simply can be what freedom there is in that.
You are an original and wonderous expression of God. You are one of a kind like a snowflake you are unique. You are you and not one other in the world is like you.
You do not look like anyone else not even your parents or your children. You do not live like anyone else and you do not have to live like anyone else. There are lots of things you do better than anyone else and lots of things you do not do as well and that is fine. You have gifts, talents and abilities that only you can express. You have thoughts that no one else has. All these things are what make you who you are and what you will become. When we think about being successful it is just doing what comes naturalily to oneself. What we are. Using all those talents, gifts and abilities that only I have as a unique individual and using it to its full extent. When we are comfortable in our own skin we live well because we are true to ourselves. Only those of us who have bothered to get to ourselves can really express ourselves as being ourselves. That is what makes us interesting. To be happy one has to use all those God given talents and abilities and just make them your own.
Your inner world will grow as you believe in it. It is not through a journey or searching that we find it is through believing. It is over the bridge of wanting it to be so and it is so. You want to believe because you want your life to have purpose, meaning and direction. You want to be that individual expression of God. You want to believe you have all the talents, gifts and abilities to use what God had given you to express your unique self.
There is with each of us a vastness of understanding and awareness that will make us achievers. Not in the worldly sense but in the sense of coming to terms of knowing yourself and being comfortable with that self in the eyes of God.
In your world within you are the central figure. You are the star. You and only you can fulfill the roles that you play within. This is the place where you try on other selves and see how they fit. This is the place where you and only you can go. What you will do with this inner life is the largest challenge that will ever come to you.
Judi Owns and Operates Be Jewel U where you can dress the whole family for less. Come Buy
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